Big ideas. That is what goes through my mind whenever I come up with some sort of schedule for the month ahead only to find very little was accomplished because I lost focus. And what contributed to my loss of focus? My big ideas.
Writing has always been an outlet for me and the reasons that first compelled me to start this blog continue to influence my hopes to keep it active. However, I have always wanted to write a book. Yes, you heard correctly, I said I’ve always wanted to write a book.
That comes under the heading of big ideas – and is what caused me to lose focus. Well, actually it started with an article raving about a training program for self publishing on Kindle. After researching some reviews on it, etc. I decided to join and, well, I’ve been so focused on that to the point of losing balance and getting behind on everything else.
My first project was to get a book published on Kindle. The point is gaining experience so it was to be something short – in fact, I had to laugh because after the book is published I was told I should buy a copy … so to have at least one sale! I’ve decided to give my sisters the money to buy a copy too. Then I’ll have three sales.
I also want to start posting regularly or at least once a week here but must admit to a bit of a struggle within myself. I have been questioning who I think I am to think there is anything about my life experiences that could really matter to anyone other than me and my family. After all is said and done, however, I do feel the insights into how illness impacts relationships, influences attitudes, etc. is worth sharing …. and I do enjoy it.
I know it is easy to lose interest in a blog that remains the same for long periods of time therefore, I certainly appreciate the support of those who have continued to take the time to stop by. Part of the problem is that in my mind I am still able to do what I once could before ALS entered my life – it’s a mindset I just can’t seem to change to fit my current circumstances. But I’m also not so sure that it is necessarily a bad thing. I mean, it keeps me from seeing myself as, well, I guess as I really am … unable to do the things I want to do.
Until now, that is, because …. drum roll here …. my book is ready to be published! No, I don’t have any delusions about myself as a writer – I just hope everyone else does. When it goes live on Kindle I will be sure to share that little tidbit here. To do that I need to hit the “submit” button …. ahhh, me and my big ideas.
Oh, the name of the book is “Mama’s Boy” and is a short story dedicated to my brother.